Last friday,met up w ccps girl's! Town-ed,then zouk! Great time w them,awesome babes!
Pictures tell it all!
I've never felt like this before, I'm overwhelmed by an unbelievable amount of hatred for him, yet, I couldn't be more in love. it's like I want to throw him out into traffic, then risk my life to save him.
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Hall 6 - Seagate Booth 6A20
26th - 29th Nov 2009!
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I used to hateee monday but i loveeeeee monday many many now.
Bf's day (: Normal routine every monday. Sleeping in his warmest hugs,sweet dreams only hahaha. ^^
He always bring me to eat nice food,feed me till full full likeeeee fat only! :XX Canele! Food's not bad,didnt expect it too be good. I love their fruit juiceeeee cause its a big big cup one hahaha drink until shiok! Not forgetting strawberry shortcake, my 2nd favourite cake hor. Its super yummy one! Heheheee. Prawning @ guillardmart (idk how to spell it) used to be singapore indoor stadium! The prawns there all baby one,i caught the most ^^ hehehee. Loveeee the days when b's off cause i hate to contact him thru sms oneeeee. Heheheee.
Just came home from b's houseeeeee. Went over for dinner because he got 2days off this week ^^ New dept tmr,hopeeee the schedule not sucky! ;D
Too many things to dooooo, will update on CCPS gathering tmr!! ^^
Go ahead just leave,
Can't hold you,
You're free
Here, take all these things,
If they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams
'Cause you meant the world
So did I deserve
To be left here hurt?
You think I don't know
(uh huh)
You're out of control
(uh huh)
And then I'm finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold
(uh huh)
You say it ain't so
(uh huh)
You already know I'm not attached to material
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love.
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet
All that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys
That's not what I need from you
You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh, yeah)
How could you believe them over me?
I'm your girl
You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh, yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
So all this love I gave you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)
If I had nothing would you want me to say
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
Ooh, my love
Ooh, my love
I loveeeee monday because it's my boyfriend day ;D I lovee to hug him to sleep,and having him by my side when i wake up. Had light lunch-cum-dinner with his mom before we hang out. Well, something happened made my blood boil! Talked it out,i hopeee its the truth b. Got my eye check at wheelock, the optician's great. He explain duper detail what's wrong with my eyeeee and tadah tadah b win, i got daily contact lens. i got t wear daily lens or spect(which is better) if i want my eye to recover and preventing it to go to 2nd stageeee. no worries! no chances of getting blindness ;X PScafee @ Palais, debbie's recommendation. Its awesome,i love the ambience. Food was great too(: And of cause, company by b that night was :DDD. Insufficent sleep thus we skipped movie,sorry baby will catch it next wk ok promise!
reminiscing the past. went t read my old blog (iam-speechless.blogspot.com) so many things happened and i realised i grew up a lot. i should be happy right? missing those old times. back then, b and i started contacting back around nov - dec last yr (from my blog) we met for movies and supper when we are free. haha. i actually like him a bit when the start of the year but after coming back from genting i realised the feeling wasn't that strong and i started to neglect him. hahahaha damn funny t say all this out ok. but then we still meet up for movie and supper like almost everyweek? things get better and the feeling's coming back and stronger. closer and closer each day. when he didn't sms me,i keep grumbling lol!! but everynight he will text me still ^^ on and on, we starting going for movie tgt w nich&yl. and thats when we get closer again until that day,at ecp was the day... lol not together i mean but we had heart t heart talk about life etc. ;X then we went shopping together at vivo! had dinner @ The Queen & Mangosteen! he bought me adidas water bottle! caught moviee - Terminator. then he sent me home by bus cause i insisted and was the first time i supposed. walked me back home then he took cab home. omg, thats was the day he held my hand(: blahblah,baked cookies,cupcakes for him. then he gave me surprise by appearing at my work place when he say he's at home lah! ^^ happy liao siol ok. went marina barrang (: it shows i rmb he went msia w his family w bmw club? thurs night he insisted to pick me up before he left. lol! on and on,meeting each other more and more often like couple alrdy. we went to kranji farm resort with nich&yl too damn damn fun new experience. and officially we are tgt on the 3rd of july (: brought me back and introduce to his family members tadatada. compromise my time with his work schedule, going bkk tgt. so used to having him by myside for that 5 days. and this will go on and on (althou we did quarrel,things happened but we talked things out etc). well,after so many years so many things happened i never regret i make this move instead,i found my new self one that i never knew i will be like this. XOXOXOXO <3
Met up with some 5A'07 classmates together with Mrskong @ Jpot! Nice catching up with them,too bad yeeteng didn't make it! Thanks Mrskong for the treat,awesome! Should try it ok? Its at vivo,under jumbo! But i don't think they got buffet one, but the food worth the price lah. Their mango ... i forgot what is that it but awesomeeeeeee! (:
I think my memory is getting bad! I forgot to bring my phone out AGAIN! Wtf righttttt,phone was so precious to me but i can actually survive w/o it ^^ But i kept forgetting that i don't have my phone with me because i keep digging into my bag for it LOL! Shuling still laugh at me! ): Well, catch up with puaychin on wednesdayyyyyyy. Window shopped,because i was too indecisive between 2dresses ;X I felt better after ranting abt how bad my life 've been recently! Hehe. I tend to get tired easily these day,so i came home early and she continue her day with tiffany (:
Srsly, i am not happy. I feel like crying. When i am unhappy, i can't say out to you because i know you are stress enough about your work. You hate it yet you got to complete your attachment. I uds thats why i don't want to burden you with all my nonsense but i can't take it anymore. Day by day, the unhappiness inside me is filling more and more. My heart is aching, like needles poking. I cldn't say out that make me feel ever horrible. Why am i always compromising you and tolerate your cold attitude. Its seems like my weekly schedule must be plan for you before i can plan for other stuffs or when suddenly you're free i got to fix my time out for you. Well, i don't mind doing all this for you. But whenever we meet, we are giving each other cold shoulder. Its always because when i see your 'sianed face' which spoilt my mood. <i>When did we have heart to heart talk before? When did you ever care for my feeling before? When did you tried to uds me before? I felt none from you before.</i> But i am still trying hard to let this r/s be stable, more lively. Try to communicate with you, in a cheerful way but what reply i always got? A dull oneeee. Day by day, our r/s is getting more and more plain, so dull. Why? Its not that i don't care. Everyday i am trying, but end of the day i really disappoint myself. Like i'm entertaining a wall. Baby, i'm not blaming you. But it takes two hands to clap. I'm here trying to make our r/s more lively, active but you are not. You know i am very sad because we actually drifted alot, and i mean ALOT. Now, i totally don't know about your life. What is going on alrdy. Because our daily conversation are just a few common msg, in the day and night until i know what will your text be talking about. Because you're unhappy with your work now hence i got to suffer too. Its not fair you know. I dislike my school,but my emotional never affect our r/s at all. Ever how bad/worse i've spent my day in school,i didn't throw a single attitude at you. The only time i will attitude you is when i see all your msges,your sarcasm or like w-t-f-msges. Baby can we stop all this. This is not a r/s i want. On the surface we seems ok, but deep down inside us we are not. To me its not because i find many problem in this r/s. For you, i really dont know because i really can't see thru you. Whenever i see your smile, i am v happy because i know you are happy(for that moment) and i smiled too. Its true,i felt so silly but well its ok to be silly for someone i love. All this, never happened in my past r/s before srsly. Not even compromising. How demanding, how attitude i were in the past(really don't feel like thinking them zz). Its totally a different me now. I actually can't believe i changed so much just for this r/s and it shows how much i cherish this r/s. But i still love you despite so many things happening. So baby, can you make me feel better?
"Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up, and life tries. But life looks different through everyone's eyes."
Ytd, got my early Christmas present from bf. (: Thanks bi ! Initially i wanted E72 but he prefer this phone!
Got hard time using this hp,but slowly getting use to it ^^
Today,we bought Adidas jacket together(: How random sia,part 1 of his Christmas present! Cause i got something else in mind too ^^
CT: Monday Cmath, Tuesday WDD, Wednesday Marketing, Thursday DSA! Grrrr im hell dead!
Ytd, got my early Christmas present from bf. (: Thanks bi ! Initially i wanted E72 but he prefer this phone!
Got hard time using this hp,but slowly getting use to it ^^
Today,we bought Adidas jacket together(: How random sia,part 1 of his Christmas present! Cause i got something else in mind too ^^
CT: Monday Cmath, Tuesday WDD, Wednesday Marketing, Thursday DSA! Grrrr im hell dead!
Ytd, got my early Christmas present from bf. (: Thanks bi ! Initially i wanted E72 but he prefer this phone!
Got hard time using this hp,but slowly getting use to it ^^
Today,we bought Adidas jacket together(: How random sia,part 1 of his Christmas present! Cause i got something else in mind too ^^
CT: Monday Cmath, Tuesday WDD, Wednesday Marketing, Thursday DSA! Grrrr im hell dead!
Life's don't always go the way you want it to be. We got to give and take, forgive and forget, compromise, tolerate each other. Sometime i really wonder, why am i who am i today. All this years, so many things happened, i let go the past and move forward to my future. No one will know what will happen next like in the past idk i will have today. We can only predict the future and it totally sucks when comes to thinking abt the future, and afraid that things will go haywire and doesn't go the way predict. Arghhhhh,sometime tried not to think so much but the mind just go on and on.
Well, im kinda sian with those hetic livestyle. Those nightlife,party till dawn. I'm missing it,but at the same time i kinda sick of it. Idk why,maybe cause of school. I can't afford to skip school anymore,gpa gpa grrrr. Maybe once in a while i'm cool,but i can't take it if i'm partying like i used to. ;X well,a good thing right. (and maybe it because of my bf)
It sucks when its monday again, but thinking about its the only day i can hang out with bf, cheers me up although school's at 8am -.- So now i need to wait till saturday night? to meet up with bf after his family photo/my class gathering. Oh its not cfm yet. Awww what to do when his attachment's night shift and my school's in the morning. This period sucks for him, as well as for me. What to do,ranting everyday but the fact won't change! So, just tolerate for another 20days??? when he change dept. Zzzzz
Bf caught this 2 for me at ms arcade ^^ Cute right!
I am so not myself recently. I just want everything to go my way. I didn't take things seriously like i used to. My life is so fucked up now. Sat down by myself and reflect upon myself. How bad my attitude was, how everyone around me tolerate and give in to me. Its my bad. My parents, my friends and esp bf. I get frustrated easily, very easily.
I simply hate waking up early in the morning for school, and i mean real early like 6am. I'm used to night life, i can't sleep early, before 12am even when i am tired thus having insufficent sleeps. Thats why i get frustrated very easily. When ive insufficent sleeps, i am very bitchy i just want everything to go my way.
I dislike myself for who i am those days so i am not going to let it repeat. A swear i am gonna kick the habit away. Forcing myself to study hard for my course. Have been searching for degree course. I need 3.5 if i wanna further study on multimedia if not i will go for either accounting or marketing (but its so not me)? I'm not young anymore,i need my future to be a bright one. I'm not from wealth family so i can't expect my parents to be supporting me after i graduate. Soooo i need to start planning, move ahead and be successful. Sooooo i promise i will study very hard, stop skipping school like i always did.
Bf and i haven't been spending quality and i am alittle unhappy about it. He's working night shift,and my school is always damn early. We hardly contact nowadays,just few text a day. Countable ok and recently he's phone reception is super bad sometime i can't even get thru his phone. If you know me well, i am not a bf's girl at all. yet im here complaining about us not spending quality time. I srsly hate this but i can't do anything. Bf can't do anything too cause he's having attachment. We hardly communicate, sooner or later we sure got communication problem one. I will just bear w it for another 20more days?(thats what he told me) But i know we will be good after this period. Being together we gotta compromise,tolerate each other and i know i can.(:
Enough of ranting,everything is over. I will be another person tmr. A Happy go lucky xmei from today onward! CHEERS XOXO!
HAPPY TWELVE FIRST KARVEN HENG!!
How did you guys spent you halloween this year? well mine was a simple one but lovely night. as usual,work at taka did stock taking which too me one whole day! Off work at 7plus,baby came over to pick me up cause was raining heavily. OH all thanks to the rain,night safari was cancelled ): Caught midnight movie, jennfier's body. Yahoo website stated that its comedy but why like horror siol! Cheat my feeling ): Hahaha. Home ard 2ish.
Sunday,didn't work but ve to wake up at 11 in the morning ): Waited for baby to pick me up,had dinner with his family plus gonggong and popo at marriot wan hao chinese resturant. ITS BABY'S TREAT! That meal cost him his whole month attachment salary! But well,at least he's filial to his parent! Good thing! Went over tangs,bought a lipstick from benefit! Thanks aunty ^^ Bought a mini mouse too,damn portable hahaha! ION was next. This is my first time going shopping tgt with his family. (: The feeling was awesome! Hehe. Send his grandparent back and headed to karven heng's 21st birthday! Hmmm,didnt stay late cus monday's lesson at 8am ):
AND i overslept this morning! HAHAHA. Cmaths is getting more and more difficult! ): Need to catch up soon. Roar!
Fyi: Im at baby's crib,waiting for his parent to be back for dinner. Im famished! Didn't eat breakfast and lunch man! ): Aunty,uncle faster come back!!! HAHAHAHA!
I feel fat,i am so gonna start jogging! Tmr after school. Yes lah settle! ^^